Monday, July 6, 2015

Size 20

Another quick late night post. I've been a busy chica during the day lately!

I had to document this, though. On a whim I decided to finally try on a pair of dress jeans that I bought at Avenue during my last big effort to lose weight a few years ago. They still have their tags on them, never ever worn because I never lost enough in order to wear them. (Yes, I am one of those people who sometimes buys inspiration clothes – I still do, in fact!)

As the title of this post says, they are a size 20.

Much the same as my reaction yesterday to seeing 274 on the scale, I'm like:

SIZE 20.

Holy crap.

I don't know when the last time was that I wore that size. It's been a long, long time.

Of course I understand that different companies have different sizing (which drives me and probably you batty), but whatever. Size 20. Please don't comment and be all like, "Oh, Avenue clothes are always cut larger," or whatever. I don't care.

Tomorrow I am back to work after five days off, and now I am excited because I GET TO WEAR MY SIZE 20 JEANS, SUCKA!!!

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Shock and Awe

Just a very quick late night post.

Today was positively activity-laden. 45 minutes of tennis in noontime heat (maybe not our smartest move, but we had lots of water and it was fun), plus something like three hours of lawn mowing and (very large) hedge-trimming. It might not sound like much, but that hedge truly kicked my ass. It really did. And I still have a big pile of cut-off branches that need to be trimmed down for the garbage.

I usually don't do this, but I was kind of curious as to what I weighed after all that, even though I'd already had some cereal for breakfast.

To frame this, I weighed 278 at this week's official weigh-in on Friday, which was exciting enough. Today after all that crazy activity? 274.


Holy crap.

I could hardly believe it, and even though I know that it's not going to stick, it was still amazing to see that number on my scale with me standing on it anyway.

Oh my gosh, I am so close to 100 pounds lost now. I can taste it.

So exciting.

Friday, July 3, 2015


Remember not too long ago I posted some goals for July? I have already made some progress, I am pleased to say. Here's the update.

... lose 8-10 pounds.
UPDATE: At weekly weigh-in this morning, I was down 3 pounds to 278. If I keep this up, I have a chance to surpass my initial goal for the month!

... learn how to kayak.
UPDATE: None yet. I need to check out schedules and just go for it.

... get my bicycle road-ready, suit up with some fun accessories, and ride!
UPDATE: Done! I cleaned and lubed my chain so that I can ride without fear of anything locking up after the bike's been in storage for so long. I also took some elbow grease to Chelsea (yep, that's my bike's name) and got her all cleaned up and looking pretty as ever yesterday. No cool accessories yet, but that is to come for sure.

... go on a hike, even just a short one.
UPDATE: Not yet. We're too embroiled in tennis, but I know that I will get at least one in during this month.

... play more tennis.
UPDATE: Oh yes, yes. I even decided on what racquet to buy after demoing several, and got it this week — the Head Microgel Radical Oversize. It's awesome and cool-looking (I got it restrung with black strings, too!), and helps me play better. I even won one game in a set my boyfriend and I played today!

... run four times a week.
UPDATE: Totally. I am so enjoying the challenges of my running group. This week I set down a solid foundation to get over my mental block of distances over two miles. Soon enough I think three will be as easy as two feels now – which, by the way, is not totally easy but a distance I know I can finish without too much trouble.

... include stretching and strength exercises in my regular routine.
UPDATE: The tactic my friend uses to get more strength training in while at work was great! Now I need to transfer that to home use as well. I've been off since yesterday and haven't been doing much along those lines. Still, it's better than nothing!

Monday, June 29, 2015

I Feel Good

I feel really good today. Had an excellent 2.5 mile run this morning, and I'm just super pumped.

I'm just going to leave this here for you and me. Enjoy!

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Four Weeks

I'd like to get a Public bike one day, so stylish! Image:

Within the next four weeks, I want to...

... lose 8-10 pounds.
As I mentioned in the last post, this is something I want to do because things have been so slow and I really want to put a concerted effort in, plus I want to earn that $25 Fleet Feet gift certificate! Starting at 281, wanting to get down to at least 273 by the end of July. (272 puts me at 100 pounds lost, btw!)

... learn how to kayak.
My region has several options and ample opportunities for this!

... get my bicycle road-ready, suit up with some fun accessories, and ride!
I'm going to take a couple classes here, and I'm researching a number of bike blogs (see sidebar).

... go on a hike, even just a short one.
One of our very local favorites is Buckhorn Island, which takes you right along the edge of the Niagara River.

... play more tennis.
Wimbledon starts tomorrow, will be watching the pros for inspiration and continue to try to improve. We're also getting more demo racquets to test out this week.

... run four times a week.
NoBo started again last week! So happy. Two group runs each week, and two homework runs. I really can't wait to get some much-needed new running sneaks.

... include stretching and strength exercises in my regular routine.
I've been slacking on these. My pal Amy F. was telling me about a new habit she's started – whenever she gets up to go to the bathroom at work, she does a set of 20 strength exercises, like squats, wall push-ups, etc. I think this is a brilliant idea and I'll be trying it myself.

What would you like to get done in your July?

Getting Down to Business

Ah Sunday, how did you get here so quickly? Sundays are always a little sad, aren't they? At least this week I just have a three-day work week because of the 4th of July holiday, so there's that. And I may decide to take some vacation time around the long weekend, too. Hm.

Anyway. I've been feeling pretty thoughtful lately about stuff.

As you may know, my weight loss has slowed down a bit since the new year. I'm pretty OK with that as long as it's still happening (which it is), but sometimes it is a bit discouraging. I feel like I should have been way past the 100 pounds lost mark long ago, but I'm still hanging in the low 280s.

Hey, progress comes in all forms, I know. And honestly, if I really put in more effort, made more sacrifices, I could probably make the weight fall off me again. I'm really resistant to drastic measures, though, after so many taken in the past – and where did those get me? Now I am just determined to go slow and make sure I am creating a sustainable lifestyle for myself, because it is how I am going to live the rest of my life.

I must be patient.

At the same time, I wonder: What if I just went into high gear for a little while, even just a week or two? The beauty is that I have total control and can change back any time.

I guess because I am less than ten pounds away from that 100-pound mark I'm really antsy about it. Maybe I could just get myself to that point and then resume normal programming.


OK, I just had a conversation with my partner, who tends to be pretty hardcore about getting things done, and he's going to help me get that ten pounds off once and for all in the coming weeks. Basically, he'll be my personal Jiminy Cricket reminding me about stuff and helping me stay accountable. We agreed that my exercise level is good as is (usually about an hour a day, six days a week most weeks), but that I need to reign things in just a little bit so that I'm only eating what I need.

This will be a good chance for me to reset and start with a renewed enthusiasm.

I'm also motivated by the weight loss group I'm in at Fleet Feet. For that, my goal was to lose a total of at least 15 pounds by the end of the 12 weeks – partly because 15 pounds, but partly because that would put me at just over 5% lost, which would entitle me to a second $25 gift certificate at the store. (The first is earned by losing 2% of your initial weight and weighing in at least eight times during the program.) I'm going to have be really focused to reach this goal, but I just know I can do it – I've already lost seven, so eight pounds in the next four weeks? (Maybe even ten?) I don't like doing time-based weight loss, but for this, I will make an exception. Let's do this! I want to get it done!

Finding myself back down to that point puts me not too very far away from the lowest weight I got down to since my 20s – in the 250s. I'm remembering myself at certain weights and know that in the low 230s, I felt relatively "normal". This was also the time when my then-boyfriend said to me, "You're fine now, but don't gain any more weight." Ugh. This is obviously NOT the boyfriend I have now.

Realizing that I am just 50 little pounds away from that is pretty incredible, and to be honest, beyond that point it is all going to be gravy.


In running news, I'm finding being in the 2.0 group at Fleet Feet to be challenging – super hard, but super satisfying. I honestly still can't believe that I am doing it. Saturday's group workout took us on a 2.5 mile route sandwiched between 1/4–1/2 mile warm up and cool down walks. The route itself was pretty gorgeous, winding through one of Buffalo's prettiest neighborhoods and into Delaware Park around Hoyt Lake. It was, however, also quite hilly – little baby hills all over the place that added up to quite the challenge. I did end up walking a tiny smidge up one of the last and most killer of the baby hills, but otherwise, good stuff! A mile is a mile. I seem to be settling into a 14 and change pace pretty consistently now. Not bad for this fat, old girl!

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Miscellaneous Thoughts

No Links I Love today.

I'm more in a bullet point kind of mood. Scattered thoughts.

• Not being embarrassed to wear a tank top/singlet when I am out exercising anymore! I still am not in love with my arms (I refer to them as "Peasant Stock" arms, thick and meaty), but I tell you what, I am at peace with them. Not only that, I want to be comfortable when I am doing active things – in the summertime, this means sleeveless. I'm over it.

• I had another great run this morning – on my own running two miles at a 14:33 average pace! I'd expect numbers like that running with someone else, but not solo. It's pretty exciting for me.

• I like how having an off day no longer really spells disaster. Yesterday was one of those days, but today I am fine and back to it. Off days are but a blip on the radar anymore, and that feels good.

• I get genuine yearnings to ride my bike in a meaningful way, so I should probably get going on cleaning and lubing the chain so that I can! Just the little tiny rides I have taken so far gave me such a great feeling – so freeeeeeeee!

• On Monday, I had my first appointment with my new gynecologist – my previous one retired. It was, dare I say, great! The office was super nice, friendly staff, and the doctor herself was perfection. I went to her based on a recommendation from a friend's mom and because she is just down the road from where I live. I don't feel like I could have picked anyone better, which is such a relief, and now I have an awesome GP and GYN! Best of all, my blood pressure was freaking 122/74. BAM.